Before I 'Kick The Bucket'

I wanted to post an entry sooner because I can't wait to express my unexplainable feelings here but every time I am online, I had writer's block.

I started my week badly, had been quite 'emo' for the first few days of the week and I totally don't know why. Then I got a buffet treat at a nice hotel and I feel so much better after that. Yeah, I am a glutton, so what? Eating does help in de-stressing but trying to lose those extra pounds that you put on from binging is stressful. Very ironic huh?

I tried to figure out what causes the 'emo thingy' and guess that maybe because life has been too routine recently and I don't like it because I can't see the purpose of life from such routine. I don't see the meaning of life. I work 9 till 6pm for five days and during weekends, I go for a movie with friends and hang out, eat, watch television, then it's Monday again and the whole week repeats. Boring and meaningless right? Well, actually it's very subjective. Some people might say "Hey, you are lucky you get the weekend off. We have to work 24/7 and yet you are not grateful, blah, blah, blah." It really depends on individual. Some people are very contented to have a steady career that pays well and a good spouse with lovely children. Some people finds the meaning of life in money, money makes them happy and contented. Some people are very happy to have a food on the table daily.

Bear in mind I am very grateful with what I have but I want to do more with my life and contribute to the society (world). So I made up a list of things that I should do before I 'kick the bucket'. Some are not really relevant to the whole idea of 'purpose of life' but I find contentment in achieving them. Plus, some might even be childish but who cares, it's my life, my blog and my list. So here goes :-

1. Meet & talk, take picture with an international celebrity. It's unbelievable but I have actually spoken to American born Chinese singer/composer/producer Wang Lee Hom. He was in Malaysia for the filming of Lust Caution and I purposely took leave from work to stalk him. I stood under the blazing hot sun from 8am till 8pm and it was all worth it because I got to talk to him although it was very brief. However, I did not manage to take a photograph with him as the director strictly disallow cameras at the set. Next target, a western celebrity.

2. Take photo with a local celebrity. Chances of bumping into them are much higher. I was fortunate to bump into Nicol David (Malaysian No.1 squash player) at a shopping complex and she was really friendly. I also manage to get a snapshot with a local chinese singer at some mini concert. Compared to a cousin of mine who meet celebrities like meeting her friends, this is nothing. But hey, who says I am done with this? I am still hoping to bump into some cute local celebrities.

3. Go for bungee jumps, roller coaster rides and any other freaky rides that are not too dangerous. Am trying to achieve this. So far, I only tried flying fox and it's actually not as scary as I think. Am looking forward to bungee jump.

4. Appear in newspaper, magazine or television for the right reason. I have yet to achieve this.

5. Fall in love and cry over the break up. You might think I am crazy but it's an experience right? Plus normally first love does not work out well.

6. Dress up to the nines and go for fine dining at a really expensive restaurant. I might not feel full but the splurge is for the experience and ambiance.

7. Rear a pet, love it with all your heart and cry when they die. I have done this so many times and it hurts to see them die before your eyes, but I am still going to keep pets because I simply love animals (except reptiles and amphibians).

8. Visit at least one foreign country where the people speaks a different language and try their local delicacies The people of Thailand speaks in a language I don't understand, so yeah, achieved. However, I am hoping to visit a western country.

9. Contribute in charity organisations. Attending food fairs and donating money are not counted. What I mean is really lay your hands and help. Always say that I wanted to lend a hand but no actions taken yet. Bad!

10. Gamble and lose/win. Gambling is bad and this should be done only once. I have played black jack and won a little. So I should stop there. I have bought lotteries but was never lucky. So I should stop.

11. Smile and have a nice chat with a stranger and feels good about it. Quite dangerous but achievable. Just have to be wise in choosing the stranger to talk to.

12. Read a good book and Watch a good movie. I love reading and book fairs always make my day. I am also fortunate to be born in this century where there are many great directors and actors which produce great movies.

13. Join a contest, one with popular sponsors and grand prizes. Am working on it.

The list is still counting and it will be updated from time to time....