Final Eulogy

Family members and close friends give eulogies of the deceased during the latter's funeral. But have you ever thought about it, how will it turn out if the deceased were to give an eulogy. An eulogy on her life journey and on the people who walk in and out of her life.

A will is a lawful compilation of how the deceased wants to distribute her wealth. Very often, the deceased leaves their loved ones with a will and only memories. How nice will it be if the deceased leaves a final letter for each and every one of the people who cares and who misses her deeply after her departure.

I decided to pen my feelings in the final letters to my loved ones today. I may only be in my mid-twenties and death seems so far and unreachable. However, nothing is impossible and life is full of suprises. The shocking collapse of the road outside my apartment proves that even just by sitting at home and doing nothing won't stop you from dying.

(Mind you, I am not insane, neither am I depressed nor attempting suicide. I am totally happy with my life, not 100% happy but happy enough to live life positively and appreciate my surroundings.)

Dear Mum,
You mean the most to me in this world and I hope I am the same to you. I would like to thank you for being the perfect mother, I will give whatever to have you as my mother again. My departure is very very sad for you but remember, nothing is permanent in life. What is important is that we have shared so many moments together as the bestest of friends. I might not be the best daughter, not being able to give you a worry-free and financially-independent life. If I can do it all over again, I will definitely study harder (smarter) and make you prouder. Mummy, stop shedding those tears. Keep your energy to carry on life positively because life really is short.

Dear Dad,
Out of the two siblings, I secretly think that you favour me more. We do not have so much common topics but I know you are there when I need a hair trim, or when I need someone to mend my broken heels or catch those disgusting bugs on my bed. these are all very fond memories of us and I cherish those simple moments. I know you might not take this whole 'disappearance' of me so well, but please be strong. Every living being has to leave the world some day. My day just happen to be earlier than yours. I would also want to apologise to you for all those hurtful misbehaviours, I knew I hurt you but now, I am much better at controlling my emotions and mood. Hopefully it's the same for you.

Dear Bro,
You are the bestest brother in the world. We might not agree on everything but we strangely, we do get along pretty well. Now, you are the main pillar of strength for parents. Do take good care of them (no matter how much you can't stand them). I don't know what to say to you because at this very point, so many wonderful memories of us having a good time together is flooding my mind. Bro, I know you always have a certain school of thought on life but whatever your philosophy may be, try to live life to the fullest because life certainly is short.

Dear Mama and Popo,
You two are the least-nastiest and easiest-to-handle old folks I have ever met. Mama, I know you love me very very much but please, do not cry anymore. You two might have the biggest impact on my passing because you will wonder why God takes me instead of the senior citizens. Well, God has plan for each of us. My route is just different but at least I have enjoyed so many years of being pampered by you two. Thank you so much for being the best nanny and supporter in my life. Do stay healthy and enjoy everyday of your life.

Dear Uncles, Aunties & Cousins,
We share a very close relationship when I was a child, and as time goes by, we start to drift apart. 8ut deep down in my heart, I know that you still care very much for me. Work and social lifes occupy us and make our chances of meeting lesser and lesser but whenever we gather, we are still very comfortable with each others company. Thank you for being such awesome relatives, family gatherings are always fun with you around. Please keep an eye on mummy, daddy, bro and of course grandma. I know that they especially need comfort and support at this period of time. Thank you for being the sweetest relatives.

Dear Friends,
Many of you walk in and out of my life. But for those few who stayed with me (you know who you are, we keep in touch till this very day), thank you for completing my life. I never knew what friends are for and what is the meaning of friendship until I meet you. Friendship is not about age, gender, the language we speak or the lifestyle we live, it's about how we care for each other. How we enjoy each other's company and being totally comfortable being our true self. You. My primary and secondary school friends, my college mates, my colleagues and all my friends, thank you making me not know what loneliness is.

I miss each and everyone of you dearly, and I truly mean it. Fond memories are meant to be remembered forever. Lets cherish the moments that we have spent together. And please, shed no tears. I love laughter and love, and I hope to see smiles on your face. Miss you and Love you. Hugs!

Random Stuff In June 2010

Hi there. It had been nearly a month since my last entry. Am busy at work....well, busy trying to adapt to the new place, new culture and new job scope. If you ask me how much I like it? Honestly, it's not really my dream job. On the plus side, the free breakfast and free lunches are keeping my mouth shut for the moment.

Met up with my ex-colleagues-turn-friends last night. Miss them so much and we obviously had a blast. Have the urge to move 'backwards' (my former boss ask me to go back and work for him, of course with an increase in salary). Former colleagues encourage me to do that too. Despite how tempting it is, I will not go back. Love the place, heart the people but what is past is past. Still miss them (and the culture) loads.

All that aside, lets check out what happened to me in the month of June :

Went south to Ipoh, Perak in Malaysia to celebrate my maternal grandmother's birthday. Had lunch at a seafood restaurant. However, my family went for the chinese 8-course meal instead of the sea creatures. They are so big and cute, how can people actually kill and eat them?







Then there was the dumpling festival. With the hiking price of everything from daily necessities to food to petrol and everything, granny decided to make her own dumplings. Actually, she makes the dumplings every year. This year she has an assistant. (Nope, not me. I am the photographer).....
....It's Becky although she is of not much help.

In case you are interested, below are a few simple steps to make your own dumplings :








Mum bought Becky a bed, and I really mean a real bed. Pets are so lucky nowadays.

Double Chocolate Ice Blended

Sipping my double chocolate ice blended with extra shot of chocolate fudge, I am suppose to be somewhere alse at this very moment. But here am I, sitting all alone at the corner of this brightly-lit, fully air-conditioned with soft music playing in the background cafe. I am casually reading a chic lit while taking in more caffeine. I am suppose to be doing something important now, something that gives people around me hope. But here am I, avoiding reality, avoiding difficulties, taking the easy way out. No, not taking the easy way out but totally avoiding it.

It feels very weird, I am suppose to be absolutely guilty of what I am doing now. However, I am actually sort of indulging this present situation. I do not feel as bad as I thought I would (is it because this route is not that wrong after all?). I do not feel lonely without a companion. The five strangers on the other two tables are sort of keeping me company.

This is the second time I took this very same route. 'Doing the same thing again and again does not make it better and does not make much difference.' Age is but only a number, lead the life you desire without having to explain to anyone. It is impossible to start all over again but you can create a brand new ending with the choice you make today.

Waste no more time. You have spent nearly a quarter century of your life, make the other half a century of your life meaningful.

PS : I am so in love and grateful to Blogspot as well as Wifi. I feel so much better after expressing the above here. I could not share it with anyone because I do not want to disappoint my loved ones.

Goodbye Colleagues, Hello Friends

Yesterday was officially my last day at work. It was a day filled with mix-feelings. Excited and happy that I am finally moving on and going on to try something new and different. On the other hand, I feel heavyhearted to bid farewell with my dear colleagues.

Since the day I tender my resignation (which was a month ago), we had five farewell lunch/dinner. I know that they miss me too but everybody has their own career path and if fate allows, we might cross path again.

The past two years working there had been nothing but sweet memories. I enjoy the work very much (well, most of the time), although the lack of a department manager should be given some serious thought. The great and nice people in the department simply completes the picture of a perfect job.

A perfect job is not about a big pay-cheque or a high managerial position. It is about the working environment and the office politics free culture. They are one of the best people I have ever meet in my 24 years of life, it is truly my pleasure to spend two years of my life with them.

"I have bought fried noodles for you for breakfast. I usually buy them on Thursday but since Wednesday is your last day, I thought you should not miss tasting this noodles. They are really popular and yummy."

"I am about to come back to join you for lunch, wait for me. The client still has some minor matters to clear with me. I insist on treating you lunch because it's your last day."

"I am on study leave and I intend to come back to the office to bid you goodbye. Unfortunately, I have to attend a funeral and could not make it. I just wanna say thank you for helping us in so many ways. We envy your new colleagues for winning you over us."

"Happy farewell. Congratulations and no turning back. Since you have decided to venture out then you should leave with a happy heart. All the best."

"Happy holiday Mich. What I said about missing you just now was not a joke to try to make you cry. I really mean it when I said those words. We will miss you for sure."

They purposely drive a distance to the office and then to have dinner with me, merely to send me off. I couldn't have thank them more. We might not be colleagues anymore but we will be friends for as long as we live. I miss you all!

My farewell gift. Nothing too expensive but every time I look at it, it reminds me of every single one of you.

Penangite Touring Penang

It's so great being a Malaysian. If the Malaysia team wins the Thomas Cup, we get a day off work. We enjoy public holidays on Chinese, Malay and Indian new years. We get breaks on Christmas, Wesak day and the list goes on. Malaysia is truly a multi-racial country and I especially enjoy working in Malaysia because we get extra days off compared to other countries.

Penang was jam-packed with tourist on the past weekend. It was a long weekend because we get the Friday off to celebrate Wesak day. My grand uncle and his wife came to visit my grandmother and I played tourist guide to them.

I took them to Pinang Peranakan House. Have posted an entry about this place before but the owner is really a darling because every time you visit the place, he has new things to offer. Mich being Mich could not resist and photographed most of the new additions in the house. This place is highly recommended for tourist, you can snap as much photographs as you want and you can tour the mansion as many times as you want but you only pay once per entry. Lets check out the additions in the mansion :






















































I fell in love with the tiles on the floor :





Then we went for souvenier shopping before calling it a day. This shop only sell cookies....large scale cookies selling :